Going Without

Time, time, time again I lose control of the situation
I go spinning round this helpless vniverse
Why, why, why? I cry
Will I ever understand
This complicated web of lies
Designed to shield my sense of pride
And tomorrow, when it breaks
Will I have the strength to face
Another stupid, silly scene
Can you tell me what it means?

I've been without for so long.
I've been without and you get me wrong.
I've been without for so long.

Deep, deep, deep desire to fly away
Can't get much higher than
A falling stone that's been thrown from a bridge.
Scream, scream, scream about
The lack of purpose in my life
That seems to magnify a scary sense of doubt
And tomorrow when it breaks
Will I have the strength to fake
Another stupid, silly scene
Can't you tell me what it means?

I've been without...

All the feelings I scorned, all the bridges I burned
You'd think a grown man would have learned
To shield his eyes from the light, face his demons in the night
And be sane again by morning light

I'd like to pride myself on being a man who gets by in the end
When all I'm left is circumstance and a chance to make amends
Just a little self respect because the smile makes the man...you know.

I've been without for so long.